Lost and Found

I came across this quote that was posted by Run The Edge.  I think it can be interpreted a few different ways.  It spoke to me as I do feel that I am losing myself while on this journey to my marathon.  I'm losing my happiness, I'm losing my relationships with my family and friends, and I'm losing my sanity. 

I was sitting in my hot tub before my long run on Sunday, contemplating what I need to do to bring my life back to how great it was before the chaos of training started.  To get back to having control over my kids, having a strong relationship with my husband, and having the time and energy for everyone else in my life.  I weighed out the pros and cons of shifting from the full marathon back to the half marathon.

Pros:

 more time with family

 more time to complete necessary tasks

 less stress

 increased happiness 

 can chase Alicia to the finish line

Cons:

   

I won't be able to say I've ran a marathon

 I will lose $10 downgrading my race entry

The list makes it pretty clear.

So while I've lost myself in the past few weeks while training, I've also found myself.  I thought I would feel defeat, but I feel hopeful instead!  Perhaps now I can answer questions of how I am or what I am doing with something other than a numerical value!

So here's to running, Caesars, and happiness!  Cheers!